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Alright,
so a lot of things have been happening since this past June.
Apparently, that's the last time I updated my blog on here. By the way,
that concert was really awesome. =P Speaking of which...I need a
concert fix and of course get totally wasted...again. *twitch*
You
ever have those feelings? Like an emptyness inside your heart, but yet
it feels so good running through your veins? It's like a void, a lonely
feeling, a hatred feeling, a sick and tired feeling. This feeling hit
me head-on like stopping in the middle of the street and get hit by a
truck going 80 MPH. I hate being lonely. It hurt the black hole in my
heart so deeply I actually started crying. I hate crying with a very
strong passion. I just want someone here for me. To be with me, to love
and protect me. To accept me for who I am, you know? It just hurts like
hell that I can't find this person. To come riding on a white horse
with a guitar OR bass on his back and just sweep me off my feet.
Honeslty,
I feel the urge to write some more poetry. It's been five months since
I have written anything. I guess it's just hard to write due to I have
absolutely NO privacy whatsoever. I have a aunt im living with that
doesn't talk to me because she's just a complete bitch. I'm tired of
living in a fucking trailer surrounded by mexicans. I have an oil leak
in my car which will cause serious problems if I don't get it fixed and
now I can't drag it anymore since everything seems to be going out. I
mean it's almost 20 years old and never replaced the engine. It's got
around 350,000 miles and still running strong. Problems seem to follow
me everywhere and I can't control it.
So,
im thinking about buying a new guitar. My old one just really sucks and
the sound is so off since I bought it and im just getting tired of look
at it basically. I want something that stands out, by appearance and
sound of it's greatness. So im going to buy of course, a PRS. I'm not
sure what brand yet, but I'll work on that when I decide what I want.
It's gonna even have a locking system! I've already got a kick ass
custom paint job idea im thinking about. It'll have a nice, shiny,
black base with blood-red snakes trimmed in light blue wrapped around
the neck all the way down. Of course, this'll take years to save for
but it's worth it, I guess.
I
got the flu shot yesterday as well at Morgan Lewis Drug Store. I'm not
afraid of needles so it wasn't that big of a deal. Except after I got
the shot I felt like I was going to pass out, but quickly recovered.
I'm just glad I didn't bruise like I did in the past years. Last year I
was black and blue all over my forearm. It looked like I was obsessivly
injecting Heroin in my arm. *shiver*
After
the shot I was hungry so I decided to go with mom and go out to eat at
the Texas Road House. The only thing good about Texas...is our steak.
*falls over* The best steak, salad and baked potato there, ever. You
practically have to roll me out of there cause after I eat I look like
a completely butterball. On a fun note, one of my waiters and his
friend gave me their phone numbers...in front of my mother. Personally,
I think it's hilarious. My waiter was 19 and his friend was in his mid
20's. Which, I really don't mind. I think it's hot. Maybe, I should
work there. So, I could get laid on some fresh cut cow meat. Bwuhaha!
Alright,
I figured I would change my nail polish up a bit. I've been wearing
black for so many years I never considered a new color till now. So now
im going with a shiny silver or "chrome". I think it looks hot. Makes
me wanna lick my fingers all sexy-like.
Yeah so...I think I'm done. I'm tired of being depressed so I'm going to shove Tabascorn down my throat.
Love, Donuts and Genocide,
- Kara-mess
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